Oct 13th

This time 4 years ago I was trying to decide whether or not to go on a blind date in "The City." I was at a spot in my life where I was open to God's influence in my dating life! I suppose He decided that I gave in enough that He would rock my world. Friday Oct. 13th I drove from Shawnee, OK to the ghetto in OKC. I walked into Rococo's with no expectations and left calling my dad telling him I met this great friend. The date continued to a haunted house and talking till 3 or 4 in the morning. I opened myself just enough to God's influence that He was able to place the most amazing friend in my life. Oct. 13th is so important to the both of us that we do not even acknowledge our wedding anniversary! My life at the time I met Jay was so volatile! I was so unsure of myself and frankly did not think to highly of me! The difference was I stopped fighting God and God was then able to place someone in my life that could love me so unconditionally that I began to understand how much Christ truly loved me! I challenge you to stop wrestling with God and allow Him to rock your world!

Sacrifice

I never understood the sacrifices my parents made until I became a parent! Right now I am feeling the sacrifices!!! On Thursdays, Lindsey goes to daycare so I can do school work all day and then we can have all of Friday together plus the weekend. This week I have not been able to spend a lot of time with her due to working nights and over sleeping. This morning when I got her up to go to school she just cried daddy daddy daddy, O how my heart broke! I want nothing more than to be with her and play with her instead of sleeping because I choose to work the night shift. I am doing this to help our family and it is only for 9 more weeks but it hurts! When I dropped her off at school she just clung to my leg. I had to sneak out while the teacher distracted her! She looks up at me with those big brown eyes and my heart breaks! I pray one day she understands that the sacrifices her dad and I make are ultimately for her, that every decision we make is with her best interest in mind! I am so thankful for all the things my parents sacrificed for me! I now wish I told them sooner!

Yeah Yeah Yeah

Ok, lets get this over with! I know it has been forever! This post is all text and no pics!

I am a horrible mom! I have just now scheduled Lindsey's 12 month pics for tomorrow and she is 15.5 months! 3.5 months . . . not a lot has changed. . . right???? Well actually it has! My baby is so big and I hate it! I can no longer lay her down and she be in the same place I left her. I now turn my head for a second and she is in another room detroying something! Long gone are the days of formula for a meal! I now prepare 3 meals and a few dozen snacks a day for Pottie! She is such a good eater. We were at the Dr. and I was complaining that Lindsey's full button was BROKE. He laughed and said he never hears that one. Moms are always worried about their toddler missing a meal. Let me tell you she has NEVER missed a meal! She will push the high chair to me to let me know it is time to eat. She is a very determined baby!!!!! We now, at the age of 15 months, have 1 tooth and another poking through! We are a little redneck!

Hopefully we will have pictures to show to the world soon! Love mycrazy baby!