Sacrifice

I never understood the sacrifices my parents made until I became a parent! Right now I am feeling the sacrifices!!! On Thursdays, Lindsey goes to daycare so I can do school work all day and then we can have all of Friday together plus the weekend. This week I have not been able to spend a lot of time with her due to working nights and over sleeping. This morning when I got her up to go to school she just cried daddy daddy daddy, O how my heart broke! I want nothing more than to be with her and play with her instead of sleeping because I choose to work the night shift. I am doing this to help our family and it is only for 9 more weeks but it hurts! When I dropped her off at school she just clung to my leg. I had to sneak out while the teacher distracted her! She looks up at me with those big brown eyes and my heart breaks! I pray one day she understands that the sacrifices her dad and I make are ultimately for her, that every decision we make is with her best interest in mind! I am so thankful for all the things my parents sacrificed for me! I now wish I told them sooner!

Short and Sweet

Hello all 2 of you that read this! I wanted to share with you one of my new favorite pictures of my little girl! Jay and Lindsey built a fort one day and I got this as she was crawling out of her fort for another book! She is absolutely gorgeous!

Playgrounds and Brats!

I took Lindsey to the park yesterday. Lindsey thinks she is 10 year old. She gets up on the biggest slide and heads down, no worries. I normally get on the equipment with her and hover over her like a helicopter but this trip I decided to lay back and hover from afar, well kinda. When we got to the park we were basically the only people there so Lindsey had the whole place to herself. School soon let out and the kids showed up. Moms sat at the benches and let their (older) kids go. The kids were in their own world and Lindsey did not fit. She was too slow and too little for them to be bothered with. Lindsey just wanted to slide. I had 1 too many conversations with the kids about sharing as the moms sat and read their books and never once saw their kids. I had to bargain with on kid to let Lindsey slide. I told the little girl that they could slide 4 times before Lindsey even got up there. All the frustration I felt for my little girl, I don't think she even noticed. If the kids wouldn't let her slide she just went to another one and squealed with glee, clapped her hands, and signed more! We went down more slides than I can count. She finally got tired of the slides and went to swing. I would try to push her and she would point at the swing next to her and yell SIT! So I had to sit in the swing by her and swing with her! She is so big! What I do not understand is these parents who let their kids go. I don't even care that the kids don't share but those moms were missing out on so much fun. I love getting on the equipment with her and see every smile and clap! Those moments are too precious to miss out on for a book!

That trip to the park really hit home with me. I have no problem chillin' with pootie at the park but at home is another story. There is always laundry to be done, something to be cleaned, or homework to be tended to. All of those will be there after she goes to bed. The moments I miss because I think my house is not perfect will be missed!

hmmm. . . .

I have been pondering my blog for a while. I read other blogs and am so inspired, then I sit down to write and well there is nothing inspiring there! Frustrating! I want to blog so I can show Lindsey my thoughts as she was growing up.

Speaking of growing up, Lindsey is huge! She is 21 months and full of attitude. She never stops moving! Well, except for her favorite Canadian cartoon, Miss B. G. This sweet little girl never cared for t.v. until we cut off cable and now she can not get enough of Qubo. Qubo, is a cartoon channel that we get over the antenna and all the cartoons are Canadian made. 30 minuets each night she will sit sort of still and watch in amazement! I love it!

Recently, Lifechurch.tv did a series on margin. So now we are on a journey to create margin. Time we are good on, money not so much. So we have now cut off cable, eating out, shopping, groceries, ect. If it can be cut we do it! The one thing we have not cut out is tithing! No matter how tight the week we tithe no matter what! God has truly blessed us. The money goes farther, saying no is easier, we don't fight! Jay and I want so badly to not owe anyone but GOD. I hope as we go through this journey I can share the ups and downs on here!

Well, I guess I made up my mind! I am going to continue this blog at least so I have an outlet for all that life throws my family!